This week, two separate friends asked me if I had plans for Christmas. The first friend invited me over to spend time with her family on Christmas. The second said she would call me because she might be alone too (I guess I am her backup plan). Now, you might think that this is a nice gesture, but this actually had me feeling more down and lonely than ever. These friends have made no attempts to connect with me in months and I should be happy that they want to spend 1 day with me, now. No way! I deserve and need more. I am a widow with no children and most of my family living out of state; essentially all alone. And like a lot of widows, I am struggling to find friends or people who actually want to spend time with me more than just 1 day a year. I am lonely and missing my beloved Jesse each and every day, so why should Christmas be any different? I need my friends every day and especially on weekends when I miss Jesse the most. Why do they not want to spend time with me any of the other 51 Saturdays during this last year? In all fairness, both spent time with me during this last summer, but I still feel hurt after months of nothing. Many weekends this last year, I have been all alone, with no one to touch base with me at all. It’s the worst and most lonely I have felt in my life. Not only is my husband gone, but most of my friends are too just adding to the sadness, loss, and loneliness.